I just don’t feel happy anymore. Like with life in general. I’m just always sad, always pissed off at something. It’s very rare when I wake up in a good mood. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m starting to loose motivation for school & work sucks (as always) I’m starting to not really like Colorado just because I’m away from my good friends back at home. I have maybe a handful of friends that’s it. I feel like it’s me, myself & I most of the times. My anxiety is at an all time high. I worry about EVERYTHING. The littlest things set me off. I don’t like to cuddle with my husband anymore (which that’s due to the fact that I’m constantly sexually harassed at work & nothing is done about it so I now have major issues with personal space)
At work I work hard & rarely ever complain out loud and never get any recognition from my supervisors, while the people who don’t do shit always get praise for their “doing ” their job.
I need to start hiking again. I’ve noticed that being outside in nature brings some sort of peace to my mind. But my always wants to stay inside on his days off to catch up on video games. None of my friends will go hiking with me & I’m not going to go by myself..
Things will get better in time, I just wish they would hurry up.